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Date:2006-02-07 09:43
Subject:What Jedi am I????
Mood: tired

You scored as Qui-Gon Jinn. Qui-Gon Jinn: The Believer.


Qui-Gon Jinn


Luke Skywalker


Random Jedi


Obi-Wan Kenobi


Master Yoda


Count Dooku


Mace Windu


Anakin Skywalker


Darth Vader


Darth Sidious


Darth Maul


What Force User Are You?
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Date:2006-02-02 16:37
Subject:wedding planning!!
Mood: busy

Goodness, I need to get here more often...as wedding stuff develops I'll post more!!

The wedding is March 27th @ 7:30...soon..less than two months!!!!!!!!!!
woo hoo!!!

I've got my dress/veil/tiara/
Got the ceremony/reception hall all booked...
Maids/Matrons of Honor picked and the flower girl picked!!
My flower girl is ServerMonkey's daughter and she is so cute!!
I'm glad she can do it!!

We're having an engagement/birthday party [for me :)] on Feb 18th!
Then the bridal shower is the first weekend in March [which my girls will tell me nothing about other than I will either love them more or hate them more after it!!! Which means there will probably be some naughty honeymoon stuff there...How could I hate them for that!!!]

I'll post more later!!

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Date:2005-12-16 09:41
Subject:Cool Test
Mood: geeky

You scored 53 masculinity and 63 femininity!
You scored high on both masculinity and femininity. You have a strong personality exhibiting characteristics of both traditional sex roles.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 25% on masculinity

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You scored higher than 62% on femininity
Link: The Bem Sex Role Inventory Test written by weirdscience on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

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Date:2005-12-16 08:51
Subject:I'm Engaged!!!
Mood: ecstatic

It finally happened after two years!!
I'm engaged!! Eric proposed last Sunday night Dec. 11th, 2005!!

I teased him and said I wanted an early Christmas gift because I gave him some RAM that he wanted as a gift for Christmas.

So I went shopping with my mom that day.
When I got home there was something in my stocking but he wouldn't let me open it.
At dinner time I playfully pouted and said I wanted my gift. I was thinking it was some gag gift or something.

Anyway, he brought me my stocking and asked if I was sure I wanted the gift now! Of course I do...I'm a sucker for gifts :)
So I opened it and almost fainted. There it was in it's little black velvet box all shiney and new!! And he simply said, "Let's get married!"
I couldn't believe it. I asked if it was real [meaning the situation!] and he laughed and said no he got it out of a cracker jack box...silly man :)

No real dates set yet. I wanted to do it March 25th but we haven't even told his family yet and they live in Ohio, so when the wedding is will also depend on when they can travel. We decided not to even look at wedding plans until after the holidays since the holidays are already so busy :)

Woo hoo, I'm getting married!!

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Date:2005-10-10 13:45
Subject:My Final Fantasy Character
Mood: cranky

YUNA you'll spend your whole life surrounded by
your friends. You are extremely nice and will
always put other people before yourself. You'd
even sacrifice your life to better the world.
However when the man you love, who'll be
athletic, out of place, and who keeps you
laughing leaves ...prehaps for good...you
change completely by cutting your hair like his
and wearing more revealing clothing. Your quest
in life is to find him

Which Final Fantasy character are you?
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Date:2005-09-30 08:48
Subject:My Pimp Name
Mood: happy

Your Pimp Name Is...

Sexxie Love

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Date:2005-09-28 12:13
Subject:My brain..
Mood: content

Man, did I have alot of catching up to do on the quizes!!
This TOTALLY me!!!

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

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Date:2005-09-28 12:08
Subject:Politically speaking..
Mood: creative

Another great quiz I got from Servermonkey...

You are a

Social Liberal
(60% permissive)

and an...

Economic Liberal
(18% permissive)

You are best described as a:


Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

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Date:2005-09-28 11:56
Mood: crazy

Thanks to Servermonkey for this fun quiz..

You scored as Jean Grey. Jean Grey is likely the most powerful X-Man. She loves Cyclops very much but she has a soft spot for Wolverine. She's psychic so she can sense how others are feeling and tries to help them. She also has to control her amazing powers or the malevolent Phoenix entity could take control of her and wreak havok. Powers: Telekinetic, Telepathic


Jean Grey












Emma Frost










Most Comprehensive X-Men Personality Quiz 2.0
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Date:2005-09-28 11:31
Subject:Long time, no write...
Mood: chipper

I have been horrible about keeping up with journaling!

This past weekend was fun. My mom and I went to Walt Disney World for the weekend. Friday we did Magic Kingdom, Saturday it was off to EPCOT for yummy food!! They have the best food by far.

Servermonkey would love Japan because they have a sushi bar!

Eric and I are starting to look at houses to see if we can find one we like AND in our budget. That can be a NOT so easy task! Most houses start around $80,000 here in Lake Wales and those are just the run of the mill two bedroom, needs a little fixing homes. It's crazy how expensive the market is getting. I'd like to know where all the high paying jobs are that the people have to afford the more expensive houses???

Going to China Pearl today for lumch. They actuall have sushi too, but it's just your basic roll, nothing special. But I love their mongolian grill :)

Hopefully this Saturday I'm going to Typhoon Lagoon with my friend Michelle. Disney sent me a free pass in the mail as a perk since I'm an annual pass holder. So I don't want to let that puppy go waste!! It saves me $35 bucks, the price of admission!!

Okay, I'm off to do whatever it is that I do...

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Date:2005-09-07 12:08
Subject:Doc said...
Mood: contemplative

Everything appears normal and she
saw no reason as to why we can't try
to concieve again. The miscarriage statistics
of course stay the same for a second pregnancy
but that means that there is about an 80-85%
chance of a successful pregnancy!

So now I can take this time to better my own health
until we can settle down and get married and try again.

I'm just saying lots of prayers for next time
that God blesses us with a healthy baby :)

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Date:2005-09-07 08:48
Subject:Going back to the doctor...
Mood: nervous

Oh joy another doctor's visit and more blood tests...
I'm going to ask questions today about the miscarriage and my chances
of having a successful pregnancy in the future.
I'm kind of scared about trying it again for fear of another loss, but
I guess next time I won't get so excited until I know that the first trimester has
passed and the chances of miscarriage are reduced.

Eric and I talked last night about a future pregnancy
and he said that there will be a baby!

So now it's just time to concentrate on healing, getting healthier for the next
time around, getting a house, getting married.

I just pray that all works out the next time.

Thanks to the guys from the office for going to eat Mexican with me yesterday!
That place is awesome!

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Date:2005-09-06 20:58
Subject:Again, thanks to Adam!
Mood: still tippsey

I'm not too much of geek only sometimes..when it comes to Star Wars :)

I am 19% Geek.
I wish I was a Geek. But alas I am not. Damn.
I wanna be a geek. But I'm not. Why would I even want to be one. Do I think it's fun? I should try writting an online test application at 1 am in my underwear

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Date:2005-09-06 20:50
Subject:The Hippie Test :)
Mood: only tippsey really!!

Thanks Adam for a fun test!!!

I am 42% Hippie.
Wanna Be Hippie!
I need to step away from the tie-dye. I smell too good to be a hippie and my dad is probably a cop. Being a hippie is not a fashion craze, man. It was a way of life, in the 60’s, man.

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Date:2005-09-01 16:45
Subject:Sometimes life just sucks and is so unfair...
Mood: sad

Well, here I am. It's been almost a month since I've journaled r looked in on my friends journals. I'll have to do some serious catching up. Perhaps now though lf will be good therapy.

All I can say is that life just sucks sometimes pure and simple! This whole last month held great highs and low lows! I found August 6th that I was pregnant for the first time. Eric and I were so excited, nervous, but very excited. And my mom, oh goodness...her first grandchild...she was nuts :)

It was not long after though that the complications started. Some of this may be a little graphic and/or too much information just to warn! But I've got to get it ou. I began to spot one week after finding out. The doctor said that it was common for women to do that and everything looked great at my first prenatal check-up. The spotting continued and got heavier. I went to the ER the first time. They found two bleeding cysts on own of my ovaries. The baby they said was fine, but not heartbeat yet. They said it was too early. I however, had a sinking feeling in my stomach. Intuition told me it would not end well, but I tried hard to deny that feeling. I went to the ER once again the next Saturday afternoon for more bleeding. The doctor was very nice, sympathetic, but matter-of-fact at the same time. It was a threatened miscarriage and there was nothing that could be done. Only time would tell. He did say that alot of first pregnancies end this way and that he and his wife experienced a miscarriage but went on to have three healthy children. That didn't really help though. The week went on, spotting never stopped. This past Saturday the bleeding became heavier and was no longer the color of "old blood-brown" [which is what they would rather you bleed when you're pregnant..the blood was now dark red. Not a good sign. I became naseaous, nervous and overwhelmed. I told Eric I just had a feeling that it wasn't going to end well. By Sunday, the blood was bright red which is most assuredly a sign of miscarriage.

I called the doctor on call and she said go on bed-rest and come to the office Monday to get an HCG check [the horomone pregnancy found in blood]. They would let them know where the count was and if it was normal. Monday came, the blood test was done and my the HCG level was a little over 3000. Which meant that the baby was about 5 weeks. I should have been 8 weeks. The baby had died. They said to come back Wednesday for another test to see how much the level went down again. Again just rest they said. The bleeding would like last seven to 10 days. The bleeding was fairly heavy now. Sometime on Tuesday I remember being in the bathroom and passing the baby. I tiny sac about the size of a rasberry. How horrible that a toilet was the graveyard for my baby. Numbly I went through the rest of the day.
Wednesday I went for the second blood test. The HCG was only 1000. The worst is over now physically anyway. I go back next Wed. for a check-up and blood test to make sure everything is back to normal [if there is such a thing after losing a baby.]

In the mean time life has to go on. I went to Wal-Mart to pick up some more pain medicine and some dinner. And of course it seemed like every pregnant teenager was there. And I was mean and hateful in my heart and thought why can some 15 year old who can't hold down a job or can barely finish school be so blessed and I can't.
Even worse, my neighbor knocked on my door yesterday to use the phone and immediately I was hateful in my heart again. She has five kids and only has custody of 2 of them. She drinks like a fish from morning until night. Men parade in and out of her apartment, she just had a baby last year. Smoked like a fish and drank through the whole pregnancy and still had a healthy baby boy...!! And I can't even have one successfully.

And of course everything goes through my mind. Rationally I know that sometimes these things happen, but the grieving part says...Maybe it's because I had a couple of drinks before I realized I was pregnant. I took some pain medication that your normally not suppossed to take when pregnant before I realized. I was too heavy to begin with. I didn't eat well enough. I'm being punished because I'm not married and I'm this sinner living with my boyfriend why would I deserve a gift like a child. Everything goes through your mind.

Eric was so sad too. But so supportive through it all. He told me at one point that he felt he wasn't being supportive and he said "honestly I'm more worried about you at this point" [He said this when I was still pregnant and having problems. He went on to say that he had heard stories about women bleeding to death during delivery and he was so scared for me. He told me I don't know what I would do if I lost you. That really touched me and gave me a man's perspective of the whole thing as well. While he was happy that we were expecting I think that it's truly hard for them to truly understand because the baby is not inside of them. Anyway, all this week, he has been mopping around as well. We did go to dinner with some close friends last night. They were a great support as well. On of the couple has a gorgeous little girl about 6 months old. I noticed that Eric kept playing with her and then would stare at her with a really sad look. My friend commented on it because she noticed it too.
So it has been tough for both of us. My mom was also just devestated. And she kept saying "don't give up trying, don't give up trying." At first I was like..no way, this was so scary, but a part of me is like yeah...another chance would be good :)

On the upside, he did say the positive thing is that now we can get a house first, married, etc and have a good place for the baby to come into. He said that he hated that I had to live where we are and have the baby there. He wants us out. So that was touching too and it was touching that he was already thinking of the future and trying again.

I've missed work though, I've missed the guys and gal :) It will be good to be back in a routine next week. It will help me I know. Only key people know about this whole thing. And those key people are the important ones in my life and that's all that matters.

Each morning when I wake up and I see the sun it does give me new hope and lets me know that life has not ended for me and that one day this dream will come true. In the meantime, I know my baby is safe in God's arms in heaven, and Eric and I are safe in His arms here on earth.

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Date:2005-08-04 09:00
Subject:Another fun quiz!!!
Mood: tired

Thanks again :)

Bugs Bunny!
You scored 28 Aggression, 57 Sophistication, and 57 Optimism!
You have all the sophistication and charm one would expect from such a high-class hare. Very upbeat and generally laid-back, you are remarkably calm and peaceful even in the midst of the most stressful of situations. On those rare occasions that your anger is aroused, your retaliation usually results in embarrassing the aggressor and laying-bare how foolish he or she really is -- rather than doing any real harm. You likely have many friends and more than a few admirers and would make an excellent leader, if you had any interest in being one. But, being a leader would require hard work and attention to detail, both qualities you are lacking in. In fact, if you are not careful, your laid-back attitude will often lead you to drift through life completely oblivious to the changes happening around you. You also tend to have a horrible sense of direction.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 6% on Aggression

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You scored higher than 25% on Sophistication

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You scored higher than 31% on Optimism
Link: The Which Looney Tune Are You Test written by coolguy3000 on Ok Cupid

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Date:2005-08-03 20:06
Subject:Adam had this great quiz....
Mood: exhausted

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.

You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.

You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

Thanks :)

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Date:2005-08-03 19:51
Subject:It's been awhile....
Mood: exhausted

Life seems so busy right now. This semester only has two weeks left!! Amazing. And I have senior-itis something fierce! I don't want to do any of my work and feel like I don't even care. I have to keep telling myself that I WILL have something to show for it soon.

My sister leaves next Friday for Liberty U!! 18 going on 30! I wish her well. She has a lot of talent and with some hard work I believe she could really go far! I think her going away will help her to mature and find her ownself a bit. My mom will be lonely at first too, but I'm going to really encourage her to get involved with some kind of group with people her own age and with which she has things in common. She will be free to finally live her own life now that both of her children are raised. I am hoping for her that she really enjoys this time. She deserves it :)

Eric called me this afternoon at work and told me to plan an evening for us tomorrow! So I'm trying to think of something a bit quarky and interesting to do, not your run of the mill movie night. There's just not a whole lot to do in this area that's a bit off beat...

Anyone have any ideas?????

Okay, I'm off to surf the net then take a walk around the lake...

Peace out :)

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Date:2005-07-27 15:25
Subject:What type of humor...
Mood: mellow

Thanks servermonkey!

the Shock Jock

(52% dark, 43% spontaneous, 50% vulgar)

your humor style:

Your sense of humor is off-the-cuff and kind of gross. Is it is also sinister, cynical, and vaguely threatening to the purer folks of this world, and you probably get off on that. You would cut a greasy fart, then blame it on your mom, and then just shrug when someone pointed out that she's dead.

Yours is hands-down the most outrageous sense of humor; you like things trangressive and hardcore. It's highly likely (a) you have no limits (b) you have no scruples and (c) you have no job. Ironically, it's your type of humor that can make the biggest bucks in show business.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Howard Stern - Adam Sandler - Roseanne Barr

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 54% on dark

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You scored higher than 36% on spontaneous

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You scored higher than 72% on vulgar
Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating

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Date:2005-07-27 14:57
Subject:The Good, the Bad and the Ugly...
Mood: mischievous

Vacation is over [The Ugly]
I do have a raise coming [The Good]
I'm eating DiMaggio's for dinner tonight..[the ohhh so bad, yet so good]

St. Augustine was awesome. But go in the winter when its cool and you feel like walking around and looking.
We only did a few select things because it was so hot and the town is a 'walking town.'

The Winery tour was great. And they didn't just give you a little sip at the wine tasting. We tasted 8 different wines and by the end we had each had about 2 - 2 1/2 glasses!!!

George Street was cool. Had some unique little shops and some really old homes. We ate at a little pub at the end of the street [Ann O'Mally's/Great Sandwiches!!] It was very interesting. Thanks Adam for the scoop on George St.

We ate one evening at the Santa Maria on the inlet. It was great and romantic.

The Fort was awesome but sad in a way. As we read through all the history we realized yet again how mean we actually were. This is just my humble opinion, but people say that America is so great, yet we killed and slaughtered for things that were not ours to begin with. As if anyone could truly own the world other than God. Makes me kind of sad. Maybe I'm alone in that. But how can we be sooooooo great when we were merciless on the innocent at times.
Anyway, the Fort was neat. Great architecture!

We did some beach time and played some mini golf too. I was only beat by 2 pars and had 2 holes in one during the game. Eric had 3.

But now it' back to reality. I missed being in the office with the guys though. They keep me laughing.

The day has gone by kind of fast until now. I'm ready for 5:00! That's horrible since I just got back from vacation :)

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